October 2010
2 posts
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May 2010
2 posts
May 17, 2010 ////// 12:28 PM
LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL! Is this really happening? AHHHH AHA! ;D
i’m so happy things are just right and it can only get better.
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April 2010
1 post
april 6th, 2010 6:22
it’s been awhiles, woah
still all the same, but doing loads better. my hairs the same, my jobs the same, my life is generally the same as it’s ever been. for the first time in about a year i’ve felt content, and maybe that’s why i haven’t been on here so much. highschool is almost over and college is on it’s way and i’m ready and scared.
March 2010
1 post
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January 2010
4 posts
okay maybe that last post was a bit harsh ,i don’t need anyone romantically. i haven’t seen anyone in over a month and it’s been weird, but i’m trying to keep it this way.
January 10// 5:40
it’s almost my birthday and i’ll be 18 ,still feel no different, still empty, but i’m sort of used to it by now
i don’t need anyone but myself.
i can’t wait to be done with highschool. i’ve been pondering a lot and i think i’m moving to seattle in two years. i’m going to delta first and that’s such a long time frame, i know, but i think it would be wonderful to live over 2,000 miles from michigan. it’s such a nice image. processing thoughts and memory from childhood to right now tells me i need to leave...
January 1, 2010// 6:36
lost sense of time and space lately. it’s been a good break and a shitty year but it’s the end of that and i really don’t want to look back on it. i probably will though
i’m out of words
December 2009
5 posts
December 25, 2009// 6:09
weird weird weird. it’s been an odd christmas and doesn’t nearly feel the same as it did last year. even if it was disappointing ,i still love you all and even more for everything that has happened this year and the ones who have stayed and helped me out this year. i don’t show much gratitude, but i am very happy indeed that i have the people that i do in my life and i’m...
December 13, 2009// 9:15
what a weird month. what a weird week. may it be from how i react to things or the actual various situations that have occurred ,i still do not know. sometimes i wish i didn’t feel this way, sometimes i think i deserve it. endless wars in my head prying me back and forth and this and that and i’m over here, over there. i just wish i could find the inbetween. i want answers ,not...
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oh and guys are shitheads. ive lost respect and sympathy but i don’t think there was any sympathy to begin with ,just a lot of worthless effort and i am done. i am so done. that is all.
December 1// 11:36
i am happy but i’m not. i feel relieved but i’m still not. probation is almost done, school is better but not good enough. money is nice to have, ive recently realized this but it still isn’t enough. ive been feeding off cigarettes and i love smoke and the way you can see but can’t see and how it slowly dissipates through the thin air and refilling and refilling and...
November 2009
14 posts
“i don’t know me and you don’t know you ,so we fit so good together...”
“time is sticking to my skin”
November 19// 12:20
this week has been very busy ,and lonely but work and school has been occupying the mind. i’m falling behind in school but i think i’ll pull through. work is crazy! so so so so sosos busy every night but i like it. my sleeping schedule is way too normal ,i’m definitely not used to this.
i’m thinking this weekend is going to be scheduled for catching up on a lot of things....
“no matter how many cigarettes i smoke ,you’re still the only one i see”
November 12// 10:50
there are many things that could take space in my head at the moment
November 10// 12:00
and may the stars shine bright but only in your head because i’m pretty sure the clouds are out right now
“september you didnt take notice, october you try to ignore us, november you look...”
November 9// 2:50
words are just words and actually feeling is a whole different thing. for one person only which is with both words and meaning but i still love you. i love you i love you i love you
peter bjorn and john- stay this way
November 6//
i wish i could speed up time. i’m ready to be happy again.
“i don’t wanna go back, i don’t wanna move on, i don’t wanna...”
November 1// 11:39
this has been a hectic week. lots of familiar feelings and trying to forget. maybe i’m forgetting for all the wrong reasons but i guess it doesn’t matter if i don’t care. there’s been a lot of weird things happening to me that regularly don’t happen. but i’m so sick of crying over people. i don’t enjoy making people feel upset, i don’t enjoy feeling...
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October 2009
45 posts
“inside my bed looking through the springs and the pillows that have caressed me...”
October 26, 2009// 12:22
just a summary of what’s going on. last week has felt like saturday everyday for some reason. i haven’t slept much, lots of xanax, going out on school nights when i obv shouldn’t be. i’ve felt like i’ve been under a lot of stress lately. i don’t know if it’s a combination of things, or a single thing, or what. i just feel like i can’t keep a good...
October 21// 6:32
laying in bed, skipping school, xanax, not caring, forgetting, lots of forgetting, procrastination, being sad, crying in all the inbetweens, staying up late, sleeping early, abnormal sleeping pattern, more cigarettes, more cold, more passionflower, more homework, less love, loneliness, still eating good, still feeling insecure, awkward, teepee, need clarity, photographs are nice, the leaves are...
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fuckd
lol
Sharon: waddup doe
stratocasterjack: you are straight up tripping
Sharon: i'm just asking whats up
stratocasterjack: im layin in bed
stratocasterjack: smellin mah feet
Sharon: gross
stratocasterjack: mhmmm
Sharon: wanna get drunk in a teepee
stratocasterjack: what
“breathing through fumes, blankets, and cold hands”
October 16, 2009 //11:15
i am not good enough for anyone. i obviously do not deserve to be happy.
October 15, 2009 //9:35
i feel very overwhelmed at the moment. work isn’t going as well as i would like it to be (ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh) and i have many projects to finish for graphics and lots of tests and making up and preparing and bleh! i do not fancy this one bit. i really hope i don’t get fired, i just remembered about community service as well ,fuck. there are certainly not enough hours in a day. atleast...
maigin blank- child salter
maigin blank- pencil drawings and things
9:43
crying.
11:24
ahhhhhhhhhhh! my stomach feels like it’s swallowing knives
“you’re empty and i’m empty and you can never quarantine the past”
modern living/ neurotica series animations →
9:30
this morning we left for downtown to take photographs for graphics. i was a bit disappointed in my photos, theyre all the same! the idea was to focus on architect and patterns, all of mine are focused on lines. i’m such a terrible baker! we made pumpkin muffins in nutrition today, they werent exactly satisfying.
October 13, 2009// 4:32
sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep z_z
naptime
