December 2009
5 posts
December 25, 2009// 6:09
weird weird weird. it’s been an odd christmas and doesn’t nearly feel the same as it did last year. even if it was disappointing ,i still love you all and even more for everything that has happened this year and the ones who have stayed and helped me out this year. i don’t show much gratitude, but i am very happy indeed that i have the people that i do in my life and i’m...
December 13, 2009// 9:15
what a weird month. what a weird week. may it be from how i react to things or the actual various situations that have occurred ,i still do not know. sometimes i wish i didn’t feel this way, sometimes i think i deserve it. endless wars in my head prying me back and forth and this and that and i’m over here, over there. i just wish i could find the inbetween. i want answers ,not...
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oh and guys are shitheads. ive lost respect and sympathy but i don’t think there was any sympathy to begin with ,just a lot of worthless effort and i am done. i am so done. that is all.
December 1// 11:36
i am happy but i’m not. i feel relieved but i’m still not. probation is almost done, school is better but not good enough. money is nice to have, ive recently realized this but it still isn’t enough. ive been feeding off cigarettes and i love smoke and the way you can see but can’t see and how it slowly dissipates through the thin air and refilling and refilling and...